Hello everyone, well i didn't write for the past few weeks because i have finals, i still have two to go, wish me luck. Well today i want to write about the past and what it means for everyone. Well the past for me is like a ghost haunting me, but not my past, my dad's. It's always when i want something to do for myself, or i wanna go on a trip with my friends, it always start with " well when i was your age, we did some stuff ". I really hate this, i mean that he shouldn't compare his past to my present, it doesn't mean that he did stuff that he wasn't supposed to do that i am gonna do the same, God created us so we can build our future and make a brighter one, not to do the same mistakes over and over again, because this way, we would be just stuck in a universe with nothing going on to improve it. I think that my dad had lots of girlfriends when he was in high school and college, and he doesn't want me to get a boyfriend. I actually don't want to get a boyfriend, i have always wanted a serious relationship with someone i love and he would love me back, that i am gonna have for the rest of my life. And i told him zillions of times that i will never have a boyfriend, but he never believes me, he thinks that the devil will play with my mind and would make want to have a boyfriend. He's really a doubtful man and it gets in my way of doing simple stuff, like last week, i wanted to stay over at my friend's house, but he said no because her parents were all out and he thought that i just wanna go there because i wanna talk to my boyfriend, like seriously i told him million time that i don't have one and i will never have one, and still he doesn't believe me or trust me. I have no idea what i can do with this, i proved to him that he trust but he never does, it has been a week and i didn't talk to him because of that. I always feel like he just sees me as a naive five years old girl that anyone can trick her into anything, not as a twenty years old grown-up. Well if you have any stories like that please share them with me, i would love to hear them xoxo..
