The Universe

So some people say that if you are born, then the universe needs you. I don't know if this is true. I know that everything happens in life happens for a reason, i believe in that so much, maybe someone is born so another can die, or maybe you are just here to teach your kids what you learned through life and they do so much better. Or maybe you will become a doctor and save someone's life, or become an architecture and build someone's shelter, i mean there are lots of stuff to do in life. All you have to do is figure out what that is. I am in a college where it is supposed to teach students to become translators, when i actually applied for this college, i thought it would be completely different. I thought all i was gonna do is reading novels and analysis them and say whatever i think, but we actually don't do that. If you wanna pass, all you have to do is to write good english, and maybe they will look into the analysis. I actually get the analysis from the internet, i keep surfing it and see some people's analysis and just memorize it and write in the exam. That's not how it is supposed to go, and it has been going like that for over than twenty years. My aunt has been in the same college, and it is all the same, the same novels, the same everything. This has to change, if i just figure out how, maybe i will change it one day, maybe that is my goal, who knows !
Anyway i hope the universe open the roads for me, because all i am doing all the time is just sitting at home doing nothing except writing this blog, if anyone has a suggestion to do in my free time, please be my guest and write a comment.. 

People

So today's blog is about people. I love knowing new friends, it gives me a look into the world through their eyes. I love to see how they think, what they know, and maybe gain some knowledge from them. I used to care so much about people, i used to talk to them all the time, even if they don't ask back. I loved making them happy, but then when i got upset from something, and i find that other person sees it as something trivial, i felt like i am making small things something big, that maybe i could have lost a friendship because i felt angry that they don't ask, or maybe they don't feel the same way i feel about them. This made me change, this made me careless actually. Now i don't feel like talking to people much, i feel like it is useless, whatever i say, it is just the same as i said before, because nothing new is happening. Even my best friends, i don't talk to them much as i used to. I used to call them, because they always had new stories to listen to, they go out most of the time, or some people talk to them so they tell me about them. I don't know what is the point of this blog actually, it is just me writing some stuff out i guess. I really want to talk to my friends, but i feel like it is so hard, i just think that i have to talk and ask about how they are, and i know that this is going no where, just to talk a little and that's it. I don't like technology in this matter, i love going out and having face to face conversations, not chatting and stuff. In this matter only, i wish i had lived in the past, so i could sit with my family and talk as my parents and grand-parents used to do, all they had is a black and white television, and nothing else except going out in the gardens and having picnics and this kind of stuff.

Stories

I have always wanted my life to be crazy, so i could have great stories to tell, something to leave in this world. But it turned out that my life is all about rules and obeying them. They say rules are meant to be broken, and i try to do that, but then, i feel stupid or guilty.I always feel like i am boring person, because i sit with people and i tell stories i know that they are not interesting, but it is like it is all i have. I wanna do crazy stuff, but that doesn't mean stupid, like bungee jumping, or jumping from a plane with a parachute, or para sailing, stuff like that, stuff that will make me scream out of my lungs and maybe scared as hell, but after that, i know it is gonna be amazing and i would be happy. My parents of course will be scared so much, but it is supposed to be my life, i am supposed to do whatever i want, yeah they can interfere with some decisions, but others are supposed to be decided by me. See how many times i wrote the word " supposed " ? Much, right !
I am gonna try to make a difference in my life, i am never giving up on that, next time i am gonna raise my voice and speak because i am deserved to be heard, as every other human on this earth, you are deserved to be heard, raise up your chin and never be afraid of doing anything, just make sure it is something right and prove your point, maybe they will see you as a grown up..
I hope everyone of you have great stories to tell..

Being Strong..

This post is going to be about having a strong character, because i think i don't have it, and people need it badly. Because i have a weak character, my dad is controlling me, yes he has the right to tell me what to do since i am his daughter, but there are things that are supposed to be my own decisions, and he is taking that away from me. Like to get a job for example, i wanted to work in a call center, it had its own transportation, and everything was set, all i had to do is to go and work, but he said no, and he started with excuses like " why would you start working now, wait until you graduate " or " This job won't do anything good in your life and it is just a waste of time " and many more like that, excuses that have no meaning, or any logic in them. I think if i had a strong character, i would convince him to take the job, because like i said, i am gonna be 21 years old soon, and it's my life to do whatever i want with. Yes they can give any piece of advice they want, but i have to be independent, i have to do something on my own. Because in the end of this life, i am the only one who is gonna be asked of what i did in my life, i don't wanna say i just stayed at home doing nothing except eating, watching and sleeping, then repeating all of this again everyday, plus doing some house work. Sometimes i think about doing something that is gonna leave some mark in the world, that they are gonna say " Thanks to you, we became better ", or helping in any way, even if it is not that something big, but i seriously wanna do something i love. I think i don't know what my passion really is, i love taking photos yes, but if i am gonna complete in that, then i would like to open my own studio, that's gonna be famous one day, and also i want to go through the world, and getting to know other people and write about them, and taking photos of them, this would be amazing, this would be a dream come true. So my point is, whatever your passion is, convince your parents that it is your right to do whatever you want, and never let it go, it has to be legal though. Follow your heart, trust your guts, and make your dreams come true, and i wish you all that your dreams come true. 

A way of life..

Okay so i am gonna write this so anyone can take this as a piece of advice, or as a story to share and hopefully it would help in anyway. So my parents think that i am foolish, that anyone can trick me into anything because i can't think clearly, and i try to prove them that they are wrong, but i don't think they see it, especially my dad. I feel that he is always seeing me as a ten year old girl, although i am gonna be 21 soon. The problem is that he is too protective, he is always afraid that something bad is gonna happen, he never sees a silver lining in anything. Whenever i have a trip, or i just wanna go out with my friends, he tells me no, because a thief can come and steal from me, or the streets aren't safe, or i can just die in any way, i hate that he is that protective, i know that he is a father and he has the right to be afraid, but not that much, all he is doing is suffocating me. I see other parents letting their kids go, and i am sure that they are concerned about them as much as any parent would do, but they are letting them living, they are letting them taking their own choices, so they would know the right from the wrong by themselves, and i believe this is the best way to raise a child, i am not a mother yet, but if i become one, yes i would set boundaries for my kids, but i will let them do things that they can do, life is about living within your limits, as long as you're going in the right direction. Whenever something happens to me, i can't tell my parents as anyone would do, i don't trust them enough to tell them, i know they would be judgmental of everything i do, although i know i am not doing anything wrong, but they have the mind of the 90s when people were so strict about everything, though it wasn't wrong. A piece of advice from me, earn your kids' trust, let them learn on their own way and let their character veil the world, don't always tell them they are foolish, encourage them to live and not to be afraid, let them learn from their mistakes, no one is perfect except Allah, we are meant to make mistakes. But fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me. Remember that, and i hope this blog is making difference in anyone's life, because all i wanna do is to make a difference and i can't with my dad keeping me in the house...